Poetry

Magical Thinking

There was some connection to be made— your death, the election, the absurd snow— and I charged myself with making it, walking down Court Street after therapy, passing under mantled elms, watching the skaters’ ankles brace against the weight of their careening. In the rink’s center, a girl spun herself into a small torpedo, red…

Anatomy Practical

I am searching for the phrenic nerve when I remember the bad feeling I have about you.   Formalin pricking my nose, an attentive hush pressing all around me. This test is timed, but I look into the body, and I’m lost.   The word itself makes me anxious, sounds frantic, frenetic. Lightning strike climbing…

Blue Work Shirt

I go into our bedroom closet with its one blue work shirt, the cuffs   frayed, the paint stains a loopy non- narrative of color, of spirit.   Now that you are bodiless and my body’s no longer the body you knew,   it’s good to be reminded every morning of the great mess, the…

Losing

My brother is lost. I can’t find my brother. I say it over again— when I lost my brother. A back road I knew once and now   can’t find. A specific wave on John’s Pond. The last one we saw there, the blue-lipped sleep of overdose. He goes from one   office to the…

Reading Madame Bovary

That afternoon, Bovary went to the apothecary’s closet, fumbling for arsenic to draw out her black bile, make her mouth a hole. She waited hours for the worst of it, the shearing of her dark lovely hair— though for many years my mother’s hair was not lovely but thin as sagebrush an autumn fire had…

Spratchet

I like the idea of a spratchet, which today I learned is the plastic divider used in checkout lines that says this is almost mine and this is almost yours. I like how it helps two strangers not skinny dip in the reservoirs of each other’s bank accounts. And there’s nothing rude about a spratchet—…

The Gilt Mirror

In the tradition of aunts and nieces we were traveling on the continent, and, as in the tradition, she had no child; we slept in one room, in one bed.   What of men? I would sit in the hotel window in Paris, looking at the people on the street below— they held no interest….

The Plows

By then, simple questions had grown blades: you’re not even going to shave came to mean, I don’t like the way you look, or that’s how I came to hear it. On certain days she’d say, do you love me today? and I would say, even more than yesterday, and she’d say, that’s impossible!  …