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  • When Lois Does a Puzzle I Know I’m in Trouble

              Like when she takes out a 1000-pieceAbstract—a Kandinsky or mandala of Buddha’s numberless lives—she’s telling me she hasn’t lost hope yetbut it’s iffy for us.           When Lois slides from the shelfone from The World’s Great Destinations series, for example,“Balloons on a Spring Night over Paris,”—actually, any placewe’ve been together—she’s wishing she had wings, or for…

  • San Sebastián

    It may have been one of the times we died, only to come right back. Maybe we rolled the car and were reborn in the woods without a clue. At least I hope death is like this: a town with just two restaurants. What a steady fire I make against the night. What a good…

  • My Mother and I Loiter

    on the front steps ofsome young professional’sapartment in Boston.                    She smokesI hold my breathit is hard for both of usto breathe.Her: heavy doses of medsMe: small doses of medsmeant to make seeing herless painful, other thingsless crushing.                    Today it is hotshe tries to blow her cigarettesmoke away from meshe doesn’t know muchabout me anymorebut she knows I’ve…

  • Looking Out

    The window is a world,the trees continents, complicated,crowding the blue and hazy shoreand that house, that house over there,my mistakes come to rest in the landscape.How did they find me,invisible, behind glass? How did theybecome so solid, so fixed and neighborly,more vigilant each day, looking outfor any errant kindness that mightpass by, and shatter the…

  • Epoché

    I buried my girlhood in the garden where nothing grows,at the bottom of the river that runs through it. I buried the hair ribbons and skirts with shorts sewn underneath,buried the blow-up pool and flamingo floaties, the plush lamb tied to a string. My girlhood, sunburned with skinned knees,leaving wet footprints on patio stones. My…

  • Dear Substitute Math Teacher,

    I will always remember Pythagorasbecause of you. An artistnot a scholar, carpenter, or for that matter a teacher at all—even in grade eight we understoodyou taught a2 + b2 = c2 for three straight months because it was the only math you knew and our regular teacher with his re-heated coffees and summer turtlenecksrefused to return from stress leave.At the…

  • Headlong

    For a decade, I smoked a pack a day.It wasn’t the drug I craved but pure,gleaming abandon. At sixteen, I benta car around a tree and loved the momentwhen I slipped headfirst from the webbedglass into a pool of streetlight, a puddleof my own blood. Sliding from the wreckinto a bright new realm, wet with…

  • The Weight

    Which weight did I know and which did I fail to carry?And what does one red cardinal weigh atop a wooden fence?In front of the yellow siding? The weight of. Please spare mewhat a man might own, what he might lift overhead, hoist once. Before his bones grow hollow, his mind grows dense.Which weight did…